As the year began, I realized just how burnt out I was last year. My writing took a serious hit, but it wasn’t only my writing. I stopped reading books and turned mostly to webtoons and manga. I didn’t draw. I didn’t play The Sims 4. My creativity dried up, and I was left feeling like a husk of my former self. I want something different for this year.
I tried to find the source of my discomfort, and it isn’t just one thing. It’s my entire life. While I had a large number of products to review, and I am grateful for the opportunity, it became too much. I didn’t have the time to sit and write a thoughtful review while also testing another product, even when I sometimes tested two at once. This year, I plan to devote one piece of writing to all the products I tested during a specific month, so I can focus more on living.
I rarely left the house or took pictures in nature, and I miss it deeply. The essence of who I am depends on my ability to create. I used to build entire worlds in my mind. I used to dream of publishing a novel and sharing that world with others. Maybe it’s time to return to that dream.
As we slowly move into February, I feel a shift within myself. I am going to be 39 years old. There are so many things I still want to do with my life, and I can’t help but wonder if 39 is when it truly begins.
This year, I want to write more about my life, my hopes, and my dreams. I want to take more adventures, try new restaurants, and take more pictures. Life feels dull when there are no memories to look back on.
So here is what to expect this year. In a few days, I will post my January monthly product testing recap, sharing all the products I tested from January 1 to January 31. Each month will begin with a post about my intentions and hopes, followed by an end-of-month reflection on what actually happened and what I am grateful for. I hope that writing more will help revive my creative energy. I miss the rush of building worlds and meeting new people I have created. Let’s see what the rest of this year has in store.
Crucianize 