February 17 was my birthday and this year I decided to get myself some gifts. I bought two things The Jewel Toned Palette by Sample Beauty which I ordered through Beauty Bay, this is the first time I’ve ever ordered from them, and Eye Bright Illuminating Under Eye Concealer from Revolution Beauty.
The Jewel Toned Palette
I actually got this palette for practically free thanks to an ad I saw on Facebook. I only had to pay for shipping which came up to only 3,95€ !
This palette is amazing and for that price, I felt like I won the lottery. It is highly pigmented, very easy to blend and the colors last all day long, I can’t recommend it enough.
It is originally priced at 22,25€ which is not bad at all. It’s currently Out of Stock but keep an eye on it because you definitely need it in your collection.
Now let’s talk about ordering from Beauty Bay, whew chile! It was crazy, I bought the palette on Feb 17 and it shipped the very next day but I didn’t receive it until March 3.
I was stressed. You could not convince me that it hadn’t been lost in the mail even though I should have accounted for Brexit and the holiday rush.
Eye Bright Illuminating Under Eye Concealer
To say that I’m unimpressed by this would be an understatement, I’m downright disappointed, this concealer is pretty watery and did not cover my dark circles, it blended into my foundation nicely but that’s about it.
I don’t know maybe I got the wrong shade, there was a shade finder but it could not find a match with any of my foundations so I choose the one I thought was closest to my shade.
I bought Medium.
I got a discount on this for my birthday so I only paid 8,49€
Update 2023: They seemed to have reformualted this product and changed the packaging. Maybe this product will have better results but I’m not really interested in finding out, you can find it here Makeup Revolution Eye Bright Illuminating Under Eye Concealer Warm Tan for 9,99€
My looks with my new gifts:
My not so good looks
I usually go for more subtle looks but one of my cousins asked for bold looks and I hate these looks so much.
So, a couple of days ago I started reading this book because it was suggested in one of my Selective Mutism groups. It’s mostly aimed at parents but I feel like adults who suffer from SM can find it useful as well.
I’m not finished reading it yet but I feel like it’s important to write my thoughts on this book as I read. My first impression is “Wow, someone who actually gets it!”, I would be lying if I said I didn’t get emotional reading this. Most people do NOT get Selective Mutism and hearing the name of the condition Selective gets it in their head that I choose to not talk. It was difficult as a child but I’m finding it even harder now as an adult especially living in a new country. There is something I want to talk about right now and I feel like I’ve processed it enough to actually make the appropriate connections in my life and how my SM developed.
It is “The trigger”, every child’s SM has a trigger or triggers, most people can’t remember the trigger or triggers because it might be something very routine like family visiting who doesn’t usually come over and pressuring the child to talk to them. For years I have never thought about my triggers because frankly, I didn’t remember. Actually sitting and thinking about my childhood there are three events that are possible triggers.
Left at Relative’s House 1988
Hurricane Hugo 1989
Left Behind in Shopping Center 1990
The Boiling Point- Starting School in 1991
Left at Relative’s House
I don’t remember this but I’ve heard enough about it to realize that it was very traumatizing. My family went to the US and I was left at an Aunt’s house, an Aunt I didn’t know and this was the first time I had ever been separated from my family. I’m told I cried until my parents came back. This would have probably been the first trigger. I was only 1 year and some months, my mother doesn’t remember how old I was just that my younger brother born in May 1989 wasn’t around yet.
Hurricane Hugo
I also don’t remember this event because I was very young but I heard how stressed and anxious everyone else was, I’ve been through my fair share of Hurricanes and a Category 5 would have been very terrifying for a young child, and add in the fact that I’m very sensitive to other’s emotions I would have no doubt been a wreck. I consider this my second trigger. The after-effects were felt for a long time after. I have memories of going to visit our house and it was still without a roof and the grass was very high.
Left Behind in Shopping Center
I shouldn’t have any memories of this but I do have some flashes, I can’t remember most of it but I have memories my parents would not have knowledge of, my parents, my baby brother, and I was were in the Shopping Center and I remember we were walking back to the car. My father was holding my hand while my mother held the baby. When we reached the car my father let go of my hand, he had a gold-colored Corolla and the seats have to go forward so anyone could get into the back and he just goes into the car and sent me around to my mother’s side but she was dealing with the baby and sent me back to my father’s side. He is very easily frustrated and he told me to go back around the car. Here is where it gets fuzzy. I don’t know what happened but I heard from my mother that witnesses said I was holding onto my father’s door handle trying to open it as he was driving away and that I fell in the street almost being hit by a truck that was driving behind. One of our neighbors saw the whole thing and ran and picked me up from the middle of the street.
I honestly don’t remember his face or being pickled up but I remember walking in the stores with him asking me if I want some candy or a doll. I wasn’t crying I think I was in shock. My parents had left me. I probably didn’t think they were coming back for me.
My mother said they were nearly home when she realized how quiet the car was and when she looked back I wasn’t in the back seat. I can only imagine the anxiety she experienced because the thought of not finding any of my children in the car is one that frequently gives me anxiety. She asked my father where I was and he in his customary gruff voice answered “What do you mean where is Lynnette? She’s in the back.” My mother no doubt screamed back “No, she’s not!” My mother always gets emotional telling me how scared she was and praying that they would not find an ambulance when they returned to the Shopping center. The sense of relief she felt when she found me standing next to the neighbor must have been immense. I consider this my third trigger.
The Boiling Point – Starting School
I was four when I started school, not that young considering both my older sisters had also started at four, but I was the only one who couldn’t talk, I wanted to go to school though. I wanted to go with my sisters but this place was not what I was expecting. Here is where my SM came out in full display and where I should have gotten help but Mental health was nonexistent on my Island. This is where I always looked to when thinking of my life with SM, I always maintained that I had no trauma, no abuse in my life to trigger SM but from 1988 right up to 1991 were not good years for me.
I don’t really know what knowing my triggers accomplishes for me, I guess it allows me to fully understand the source of my anxiety, I knew some of my abandonment issues came about because of being left in the shopping center but I never took into consideration that it was there before that incident.
I wonder what else I might ruminate over when reading this book?
Welcome back to #CrucianwithMami, today I’m going to talk about the 1st person plural We, We in Standard English has five forms (We, Us, Our, Ours, and Ourselves) in Crucian We also has five forms but they are a little bit different, in Crucian we use (We, We or Allawe, Ow-a or We, Ow-a own, We own or Ow-a’s, and Ow-a-self or Weself), where Standard English would say Us in Crucian we say We or Allawe. Allawe is simply “All of us”, we never just say us it is always All of us.
Sample Sentences:
SE: We sang as we walked.
Crucian: We does sing as we walk.
SE: We don’t want a new carpet.
Crucian: We dohn wahn a new carpet.
SE: I hope he likes us.
Crucian: I hope he like allawe.
SE: You didn’t tell us it was her birthday.
Crucian: You ain tell we ih wuz ha buttday.
SE: We are already on our way.
Crucian: We deh on ow-a/we way.
SE: Don’t tell our parents!
Crucian: Dohn tell ow-a/we parents!
SE: Their children study hard while ours never study.
Crucian: Dey chirren dem does study hard while ow-a/we/ow-a’s (own) dohn study.
I know you noticed the two placements of does, I’ve been thinking of our use of does a lot and it seems to be used when we should be using a word in the past tense. Like in the previous sentence We sang as we walked, in Crucian it was we does sing as we walk. It doesn’t always work that way though, sometimes we just use the word in its present tense like He carried something on his back would be He carry something on he back or He does carry something on he back.
SE: Your house isn’t better than ours.
Crucian: Yo house ain betta dan we/ow-a/ow-a’s (own).
You might have also noticed the own after we or ow-a. Well, this only happens when using ow-a as a possessive pronoun vs using ow-a’s.
SE: We did it ourselves.
Crucian: We do it (by) weself/ow-a-self.
SE: We didn’t enjoy ourselves.
Crucian: We’en enjoy weself/ow-a-self.
At the beginning of the lesson I said Crucian had five forms for the 1st person plural We but in actuality you can simply use just three! We, We own, and Weself. It really just comes down to your own preference.
I hope you enjoyed learning about the Crucian way of using and saying We. The next lesson will focus on the third-person plural They, I’m skipping the second person plural because it is the same as the second person Yo – Yu
Sometime last year I mentioned to my husband that 23andme was having a sale if he was still interested in doing one. His response if I remember correctly was “Hmmm”, I despise that response because I never know if he was actually listening or not, I guess this time he was because in January he walked in with the 23andme box-like “look what I got”. I had a lot on my mind so I didn’t really pay attention to when he did the test or sent it in but I do remember asking to see it when he got the results.
I was always interested in what his results would look like. I assumed something similar to my own since his father’s family is from Guadeloupe and my father’s family is from Saint-Barthélemy, Guadeloupe, etc. My mother is from Dominica while his mother is from Benin. 23andme doesn’t have a category for Benin so most of it would probably fall under Nigeria.
I tried using 23andme’s Predict my ancestry tool to see what his results might look like since there was no Benin category I used Nigeria for both his mother’s father and mother and Guadeloupe for his father’s mother and father. Here’s what his predicted results look like:
These results are not very convincing. I’m unsure why his European would only be 2%. The Nigerian is way too high, the South Asian, and WANA are both plausible, and everything else looks possible.
His actual results kind of shocked me. I have to admit I am not well versed in the history of Guadeloupe but his results are very interesting. Here’s what his results are:
Did you see what shocked me?
No?
His French and German are nonexistent. I really shouldn’t have been surprised as the most recent update hasn’t been very good for people with ancestry from the French Caribbean. I have no idea what the Ashkenazi Jewish is about, my father and some of our other French Antilles relatives have tiny amounts so my next adventure is to learn a bit more about Guadeloupe’s history. I knew the Native American was possible so it’s not surprising. The Recent Ancestry in the Americas did surprise me though. Haiti and the Dominican Republic, one would assume it’s from a French ancestor but I’m unsure since he has a lot of DNA relatives from other Spanish-speaking countries. He does have a few relatives from France, and we are not directly related as I had feared. There was one relative from Guadeloupe with my mother’s maiden name. I know my mother had family that moved to Guadeloupe so he might not be related to me through my father but maybe very distantly to my mother?
Just because here is a compilation of My father’s results, My results, and my husband’s results:
I wrote about Joseph Boldt before in this post and this one as well. Since those posts, I have done a lot more fact-checking and some stuff is just not accurate anymore. Genealogy as you might not know is very fluid and things you thought you had checked and double-checked could always use a triple check.
First things first, Joseph and Christina’s first daughter was not Adelaide as I had assumed but Ancilla Boldt, this was not a middle name or nickname but her actual name. Ancilla was born on August 7, 1869, and she passed away on March 18, 1881, when she was 11 years old.
Burial records 1881 St. Croix, Danish West Indies
This record was the reason I went back through the records I had for Adelaide and realized that there were records for 3 people. There was Ancilla born in 1869, Adelaide born in 1883, and another Adelaide Boldt born in 1853. I now have Ancilla and my Adelaide accounted for but have no idea who the older Adelaide is. I’ve been trying to build a mirror tree for her but she is a complete mystery to me and I’ve shelved it for a little while. I’m more interested in Joseph and what secrets he has for me.
So, Joseph, I know was born in the 1840s and his mother’s name was Precill or something close to it so I focused on looking for birthdates with names close to it. I came across this entry:
Baptism records 1842 St. Croix, Danish West Indies
The name Sames made no sense to me so I looked at the record more closely and the name is obviously James.
Joseph was born on April 3, 1842, parents are James and Priscilla from Mt. Stewart.
This could be his parents, this could be my 5th great-grandparents but I’m not sure. They both have no surnames so I’m assuming they are slaves. I viewed a Session during RootsTech Connect that said slaves took names that had a meaning to them. The name of their master, their master’s mother, or grandmother, whoever it was the slave knew them and took the name for themselves during slavery and kept it. I’m now tracking every Boldt I can find on the Island. Somewhere there has to be a clue.
Very recently I found some new records that suggest there was another daughter named Rebecca, there’s no image available to view but the Household number leads me to believe this was one of my great aunts.
1880 Census St. Croix, Danish West Indies
Unfortunately, she passed away in 1900 before she could turn 23.
Burial records 1900 St. Croix, Danish West Indies
She’s old enough to have had children but I haven’t come across any so far.
As for Christina, I think I found some of her family, possibly her father and two aunts. I was looking over the 1870 Census when I noticed a familiar last name, Chamberlain. Family in the Danish West Indies almost always stuck close to each other so it’s telling that the only other family I found with this last name lived right next to Christina and Ancilla.
1870 Census St. Croix, Danish West Indies
Going back to Joseph’s parents in the 1870 Census Priscilla shows up as Precill Karen. She’s an Invalid living with her son Joe and sister Magdalene Karen who is also invalid.
1870 Census St. Croix, Danish West Indies
In the 1880 Census, she is Percila Boldt, there’s no image available for this record so I have if I look at the household number it’s safe to assume she was living with Joseph and his family.
Percila is very close to Priscilla so even if these specific people aren’t my great grandparents I’m going to refer to Precill as Priscilla from now on.
I haven’t had much luck finding any other Karens on the Island so it just might be a misspelling. So far the closest names I have found are Caren, Cairnes, Cairns, Karn, Kern, and Keron.
My Boldt Collection:
After going through the Census records which include Baptism, Burials, and Marriages I have collected quite a few Boldts to see if I could find a link to my family.
James Boldt born on 28 November 1854 in St. Croix, Danish West Indies, he went by the name Bolde while becoming Naturalized in Massachusetts.
I have not found a baptism record for him. I did find him in the 1870 Census living in a house owned by Sarah Jane Boldt. I’m still doing research into who this might be.
I’m now trying to work downwards from the connections I have made but it is very slow going because I’m not sure if they went to other Islands or other countries.
Shamppoing gel Forece & Éclat (Pomme et Feuille d’Olivier BIO)
Feuille d’Olivier Gelée nettoyante
Gel douche refraîchissant
Je m’attendais à une consistance plus proche du gel, mais c’était très liquide.
Même s’il était liquide, ce gel de douche a bien moussé et a laissé une sensation de propreté sur ma peau.
Le parfum n’a pas non plus posé de problème : il est très léger et pas aussi fort que la gelée nettoyante.
9/10
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Rating: 9 out of 10.
Shampooing gel Force & Éclat
Je suis un grand utilisateur de produits capillaires et j’aime utiliser différents shampooings, après-shampooings et autres produits et celui-ci n’était pas mon préféré.
Il s’agit d’un gel de shampooing que je n’ai jamais utilisé auparavant et je ne peux pas dire que je vais probablement en utiliser un autre après cette expérience.
Il a bien moussé, mais j’avais l’impression qu’il était trop lourd pour mes cheveux et je n’aimais pas la sensation de mes cheveux après l’avoir utilisé.
J’ai fini par avoir beaucoup de frisottis, beaucoup plus que d’habitude, je n’ai pas utilisé d’autres nouveaux produits que celui-ci, donc je sais que c’est grâce à ce shampoing.
La seule bonne chose que je peux dire de ce produit, c’est qu’il sent vraiment bon.
Votre utilisation peut varier, donc si vous êtes intéressé par un shampoing bio, celui-ci ne coûte que 2,40€, donc je vous conseille d’essayer.
6.5/10
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Rating: 5.5 out of 10.
Gelée nettoyante
C’était la première fois que j’utilisais un gel nettoyant et je dois dire que j’ai été très impressionné !
Je me suis sentie très bien sur mes mains et ça a vraiment bien nettoyé. Le seul problème que j’ai rencontré, c’est le parfum, mais il ne dure pas longtemps.
Comme vous le savez peut-être tous en suivant mon blog ou peut-être est-ce votre première visite ? Je suis une passionnée de cheveux naturels et j’adore essayer de nouveaux produits capillaires.
J’ai récemment vu une campagne se dérouler sur Voo.paris avec les produits capillaires Nicky Cosmetics Paris. J’ai tout de suite été intriguée et j’ai donc rejoint la campagne.
J’ai été acceptée !
Mais mon bonheur a été de courte durée…
En attendant mon colis, j’ai vu des messages et des témoignages d’utilisateurs qui disaient avoir perdu des cheveux après avoir utilisé ce produit. J’avais peur d’être honnête, mais j’ai décidé de me renseigner sur les ingrédients des produits.
Score sur INCI Beauty :
Nicky Cosmetics
Shampoing à l’Huile d’Argan
10.4/20
Pénalité Moyenne :
Polyquaternium-7
Polyquaternium-10
Disodium EDTA
Cocamide MEA
Masque Intense Réparateur à l’huile d’Argan Cheveux secs et abîmés
9.6/20
Pénalité Moyenne :
Cetrimonium Chloride
Behentrimonium Chloride
Quaternium-80
Phenoxyethanol
Paraffinum Liquidum
Triethanolamine
J’ai donc lavé mes cheveux pour la première fois et j’ai apprécié les résultats.
Voici une photo de mes Reels sur Instagram, si vous voulez voir le tout, vous pouvez la voir ici
Je mettrai à jour le blog de tout changement dans ma coiffure au fur et à mesure que je continuerai à tester ce shampooing et ce masque.
Lorsque j’ai reçu ce courrier, j’ai été pris par surprise. Même si j’avais postulé, je n’ai jamais reçu un courriel ou un mot disant que j’avais été sélectionné !
Je viens d’avoir 34 ans, alors quand j’ai lu sur la boîte de cette crème qu’elle était destinée aux femmes de 40 ans et plus, j’avoue que j’ai été très offensée, mais je vieillis et il a déjà été mentionné que vous devriez commencer à prendre soin de votre peau avant les premiers signes de vieillissement.
J’ai commencé à l’utiliser dès que je l’ai reçu parce que je voulais voir s’il y aurait une différence notable dans ma peau.
La crème est comme toutes les autres, facile à appliquer, sans odeur forte, et elle s’absorbe rapidement mais c’est là qu’elle se termine.
J’ai l’impression que la crème n’a absolument rien fait pour ma peau.
Welcome back to #CrucianwithMami, today I’m going to talk about the 3rd thing Pronoun Ih or as they say in Standard English It.
Ih is an interesting word while it means “it” it can also be used to say “there’s”. With Crucian it’s really best to learn by listening since there really aren’t any formal rules you just hear and repeat. I guess this is why our writing system is so fractured everyone writes the words in their own interpretation to how it sounds.
As for Ain, it seems to only be used in the negative form in specific situations. I haven’t really figured out what those situations are yet.
In Standard English, It has three forms It, Its, and Itself. Ih also has three forms in Crucian, Ih, Itz, and Itself.
This has been an epic ride with Influenster, I already received two Voxboxes (Marc Jacobs Velvet Noir Mascara and Opi Tokyo Collection) from them with no problem but this one has given me nothing but grief since August 2020.
In the beginning, I was very excited because this was my third Voxbox after being on the site since 2014 but as time went on and I hadn’t received my box I started to wonder if maybe I should just give up on the box ever coming.
I just gave up after that because the first campaign ended then they extended it and that one ended as well and I got an email asking me to input my current address on November 7, 2020. Nothing after that except endless emails asking me to review my nail polishes, the same polishes that I did not have, I can’t lie but I was getting very frustrated with the site. On January 22, 2021, I received an email saying I was in the Opi Rainbow Voxbox again! Nothing was on my dashboard though so I assumed it was a mistake, 5 days later the campaign showed up on my dashboard I was less than impressed and didn’t expect to receive anything again.
On February 22, 2021, with just 2 days left in this campaign I received my Voxbox, and it was just by pure chance I think, I was coming out of my house to go pick up my son from school and I saw this poor delivery man looking confused, he asked me if I knew this person “my name” well yes, that’s me. He was so happy lol, I had to go back to the house and put down the package because I didn’t feel like trying to balance it on the stroller.
Once I had dropped my son back to school and had the day to myself (mostly!) I put on my fake nails and tried on my new polishes.
In my box I received:
OPI Natural Nail Base Coat & OPI Top Coat
OPI Nail Lacquers 3
No Turning Back From Pink Street
I Manicure for Beads
Getting Nadi On My Honeymoon
I like the colors that I received and am impressed with how fast they dry, my last box was all Infinite Shine so this is my first time using the regular lacquers.
To make things more interesting on February 11, 2021, while I was still waiting for this elusive package I received a survey for cleaning products. Even more interesting they asked if I would post the reviews in French, they never asked before but I have no problem doing that just hope they don’t want a speaking video.
Crucianize 